Update Yo

So yeah. Life's been keepin' on. Mostly I'm just ignoring all the things I should be doing in favour of less important things/internet junk. Also this blanket fort is the shit and I'm just gonna end up living in here forever. Partyin' hard.

Uhm specific stuff that's gone down.

I hung out with Scout on tuesday or wednesday and she did my hair~ It's totally sweet, all green and purple and blue and red and junk. I need to take pictures of it but I'm a lazy butt.

Then I hung out with Scooter and Eliseo annnnnnnd I finally got with Eliseo. May I just say he has a very splendid member that fits with me quite nicely. 

Though on that note I feel kind of ashamed and stupid for not using condoms very much. I'm on birth control and shit, but then I hear people who are on it too still being adamant about condoms and I just feel like a bit of a fuck-up. I just forget about them and shit like STIs when I'm right there with someone. And if a guy does wear one he's fucking with it every five seconds and I've just never had a good experience with them. But I need to start having people use them because when I go to SF it's gonna be way more likely that people have STIs just because it's a huge city. Is it bad that I just prefer to not use them? Probably -3-

I went and got an application for a gardening shop yesterday with my mum. And I was super motivated to fill it out and go and turn it in today, but of course my mum had to crush my motivation the moment I woke up. I come upstairs and am standing there trying to collect myself when she just bursts open about how she's checked parent portal, and I have three Fs and she's going to nag me about it and I just deflated. Sitting outside helped me a bit, but now I'm really just hiding from her down stairs because I now feel unmotivated as well as guilty for wanting to work on my application today, even though she was nagging me about that on friday as well. I want to work on drawing too, but I doubt she'd think that was productive; and I need to get back to the art college but I'm too much of a paranoid fuck to do that. So basically I'm just a stressed useless mess right now. I just want to sink into my couch and not have anyone find me so I can be warm and cozy and happy without any worries.