Two Days

Let's start off with today, so that things almost look chronological on my blog.

Today I woke up at 7 in the morning, much to my displeasure, as that meant I only had six or seven hours of sleep the night before. I tried with all my might to get back to sleep, shutting doors, adjusting pillows, wishing for curtains that aren't an old piece of crushed costume velvet with armholes in it from when I was a vampire/fairy thing. I didn't manage to get to sleep so I put on some pyjamas, and wandered upstairs. I really should have eaten something, but I just couldn't find anything I really fancied, so I stuck with a small glass of water. I then surfed the internet for a few hours, trying to ignore my adamantly growling stomach. Then I went and had a lovely six hour nap. I feel more rested than I have in days and I also don't feel guilty about having taken it because there is absolutely nothing else I should be doing. I even got my room pretty cleaned up last night.

Why did I tidy up my room? Why, what a lovely, totally accidental, segue way. Last night I actually had company over! Now, just to dash all your hopes and dreams before they even get started, he turned out to be an asshole. Firstly his favorite reply to literally any sentence was "You're (insert most negative adjective from previous statement.)" The quickly traversed from a slightly endearing tease to holy fuck can I just punch you in the throat. He also took every chance to put down anything I liked even remotely. He pinched and jabbed at me like a fukken three year old, despite my telling him to cut that shit the fuck out. He smelled like ass but insisted he showered regularly (fukken bull shit, I know what unwashed human smells like.) He flat out told me I was only useful because of my looks, granted he'd said it once before on facebook, but I thought surely he was just kidding and no one could be that much of a twat. And he was just generally obnoxious and unpleasant until I finally came to my senses and got him to leave. 

So then I finished out my evening spritzing lavender smell everywhere, changing my clothes, and hanging around on the internet. This is why I prefer the computer to human companionship 90% of the time.

But hey for the most part my mood has been pretty good and I'm having normal distress over things as opposed to depression.