I think some things aren't quite right. For starters, my appetite is not right. Usually I eat three good sized meals a day via lunch, an after school meal, and then dinner. However today I ate lunch couldn't eat much for a snack, and even less for dinner (a few sips of wonton soup.) All I want to eat is sweets. I want cake and ice cream and fruits and cereal. But since I've not gone shopping all we have are cuties which you can't really eat on an empty stomach. But that's all I want to eat, so I just don't. And it's been like this for most of break. I'm not sure if this is what people mean by decreased appetite as a side affect from medication, but if it is, that's ass.
Luckily my first day back wasn't that bad. I had all of my awesome easy classes. And I have art and lunch with Scout!! Freaking first time since freshman year omfg~ This is gonna be the best. (As long as I don't lock my keys in my car again if we go out.) But tomorrow is going to be a bit more tough I think. I have to figure out where first aid is and I have english. I just did the reading for our winter break homework. It was a frustrating story about a disgustingly impotent man trying to ignore his own impotency. Now that I'm finished and thinking about what to do to compare it with oedipus I'm getting a little bit down. I'm not really surprised seeing as I could have, and have told literally everyone that homework and school is where 90% of my depression comes from. It takes all my short comings and just rubs my face in them. When I'm through with school I feel like I suck, because that's what it's telling me. So I'm glad I don't have much in the way of strenuous classes because I don't want to be fucking insane again this semester.
Oops yeah. It's that old familiar feeling. Hey depression how's it hanging, been a nice break. Welcome back.
Luckily my first day back wasn't that bad. I had all of my awesome easy classes. And I have art and lunch with Scout!! Freaking first time since freshman year omfg~ This is gonna be the best. (As long as I don't lock my keys in my car again if we go out.) But tomorrow is going to be a bit more tough I think. I have to figure out where first aid is and I have english. I just did the reading for our winter break homework. It was a frustrating story about a disgustingly impotent man trying to ignore his own impotency. Now that I'm finished and thinking about what to do to compare it with oedipus I'm getting a little bit down. I'm not really surprised seeing as I could have, and have told literally everyone that homework and school is where 90% of my depression comes from. It takes all my short comings and just rubs my face in them. When I'm through with school I feel like I suck, because that's what it's telling me. So I'm glad I don't have much in the way of strenuous classes because I don't want to be fucking insane again this semester.
Oops yeah. It's that old familiar feeling. Hey depression how's it hanging, been a nice break. Welcome back.
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