Hiding from myself
From everyone else
Somewhere deep inside
My chest my breath
I won't let my self out
I couldn't I can't
It's far too scary outside

Men taking my thoughts
Melting them to molasses
Typing my only defense
Broken
Visions of the end
Plague me in the middle
Of something I can't
Quite comprehend

Searching for sounds
To ease the cry in my mind
Looking to a future
For which I don't care
While the one that I do
Is left tired and tailing
Undernourished for fear
It will grow out of my hold

Silence is my control
My cage and my captor
Welcomed to hold venom
Words threaten spilling
Over the barriers
And through eyes
Into hearts of those
Standing too close

For this I am sorry
But I cannot control
What I have well in hand
I can feel myself sinking
But I long to ignore
My heart faintly beating
I'm not sure it's still there
In nights before sleep
I search for the feeling
And find I am hollow
Unwilling to be filled