Home Again Home Again

Whelp I'm back home, thanks to flight that left at 6 in the morning. ;3; It's been a while since I had to get up so early for a flight. It's strange how getting up so early makes your day seem to last so much longer. You look at the clock thinking it should be 5 o'clock only to find that it's really 2. Oofda. 

I haven't done too much, none of my friends were available to hang out, so I've just been minding my own business, really. Hanging around Gaia, checking up on my webcomics. Speaking of which! I finally updated my webcomic list! Yaaaaaay I'm so lazy! But yeah, it has most of the webcomics I read, but I was running short on time so it's not all of them, but it's still a pretty sizable list. This may be why I have such terrible grades X3

In other news around the internet, I've been looking for goth/lolita/punkish clothes online (Not so much the punk) and it's hard to decide what I want to get. I don't really have that much money to spend (compared to internet prices at least. It would last me for at least 20 thrift shopping trips.) I think my favorite was either this beautiful yellow wa-loli dress covered in white-pink flowers. (I think they're peonies~) It's a full set (headdress, blouse, skirt, legwarmers, belt) but it's not too expensive, only about $61 plus shipping! Normally that's the price before shipping, this makes me very excited. :3 That or this  adorable t-shirt with little grim-reaper kitties, with HANGRY & ANGRY on the bottom. I squealed out loud when I saw it, definitely want.

Also, Dave got back from Korea (South Korea of course) And he got me this adorable gorilla plushie made out of old t-shirt and one of those little solar-powered things that wobble it's head (or in this case heads) when in sunlight. They're over there ---> 

I am adding them to my collection of vinyl toys and other such little figures. I have quite a few now; nothing close to my brother's collection, he has at least 20, not including all of his little blind-box stuff and phone charms. He would make love to Kid Robot. (Or any of his sexy lady figures if they were bigger... and had vaginas... *cough*) I'll get a picture of it (my toys, not my brother getting it on with inanimate objects) once I finally get my room in order.

I think I need to move a little shelf into a corner for some of my fancy bottles and thing and maybe some books... Basically I have way to much stuff and am now having trouble fitting it into my new room. .3.;; It's even bigger than my old one, but now I have a big bed so that's probably why I can't fit as much... but it's a really pretty room, the walls are purple with green trimming and then the bathroom is this pretty deep yellow. It's almost like a flower ~<3

anywhooo I should probably go sort through some more of my stuff so my mum doesn't get angry with me. >3<

Happy Turkey Day Hurrr Hurrrr Amurrrica

I've been in TN for the past few days, after a huge fiasco with my flight, which wasn't too fun. But woo, I'm here with my dad and step-mom. (I would say with my step-brothers too, but contact is rather minimal with those two) Compared to weather in the Rockies, it's freaking summer down here. Tch they think 60 degrees is cold! The loons....
Well, trukeymas is progressing rather uneventfully, my dad's being a huge pessimist like always (I may be gloomy, but his pessimism is down right defeating. Thank you Matt for your pep talk on being positive.) and he's going to complain about how everything is ruined forever like he does, I'm pretty sure everything will turn out fine though. I made lefsa last night. If you haven't had lefsa make yourself a Norwegian friend stat, because lefsa is the most perfect food in the world. Even if it is a bit tricky to make... but I guess I'm pretty good at it :3
I have also been training to be the very best like no one ever was. I've finally been putting in some time on my heart gold game. I'm beginning to wish that I had taken a cyndaquil instead of totodile... I miss my fire-type. But I still have a super Flaffy, his (?) name is Chu Chu :3 sho cyooot.
yeah that's all, I suppose. Have a super turkey day or a super completely normal day.

A whole lot of nothing

That's what's been going on with me lately. Hoooray. School has once again become a monotonous time-trap with a whole bunch of the same, so not much to report there.

Except that I think my orthodontist is punishing me for not wearing my bands. For no apparent reason they took off all of my front brackets and re-put them on. Also, they had a wire tie on one of my teeth so I could attach a band to it, and when I was looking in the mirror last night, the thing is still there, half attached to my bracket, yet I can't get it off. And it obviously has no purpose, aside from being obnoxious. So basically for the first time since I got braces they're hurting for more than a day. Way to go Orthodontists, you've made me hate braces like everyone else.

*sigh* There isn't even anything violently exciting going on with web-comics that I could talk about... Though, in Questionable Content, the whole exchange between Marigold and Tai was lolish. And if you haven't already, go read Marigold's story. It's pretty funny, especially considering she still is a pretty bad writer even after all of Tai's suggestions. Also I am curious to see what is up with Marten's porn. Something in the back of my head is telling me it might his mom. But then I think seriously about it and I'm like "Naaaaaaaaaah"

Oh frack, that reminds me. I started reading My Immortal two or three nights ago. By chapter 5 I wanted to turn off my computer and never turn it on again. But I got through the first 22 chapters without harming myself or anyone else. Good thing it has no plot or else I wouldn't be able to take long breaks in between reading it.  Main complaints: sudden and random sex wtf? She said masticate instead of masturbate and is generally the worst speller/writer/"human" in the omniverse. She mixed up filch and Mrs. Norris, once again again, WTF? And finally, she thinks she's goth. I mean, it's not like I would know what constitutes as goth or not, but I'm pretty sure she was just a... a Hot Topic whore. Or something. I don't even. I just don't even.

Also, only other exciting thing: I am for sure getting my hair dyed this Wednesday. I am freaking excited, holyohmygosh.

That's all I suppose. I'm off to go waste more time on the internet.

You are walking down a path that splits into three different directions...

 Right:

I met a girl today. Well I didn't really meet her... it was on the internet. But I still talked to her in a forum, and I read her profile. I listened to her music on there. Read her About Me. Already I know more about her than most people who just met know about each other. She has the hair that I want one day, and red glasses like me. Also she likes women. She's like someone inside of my head. And even though I've never seen her face to face, I still think I love her.

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Left:

I can't consider him mine anymore. I pushed him away because I couldn't make up my mind and I couldn't talk to him about it. I turned a boulder, that could have been pushed by two people, into a mountain that I refused to climb. But now I'm lonely, really lonely. And every single day I think about him. And I doubt myself, and my decisions, and my capabilities, and my overall worthiness. And after months of thought, I still have absolutely no bearing on what the hell I should do.

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 Middle:

All I did was stare at him for weeks on end, because he's "interesting" I don't even know why I singled him out. My mum's urging probably helped. Now we talk awkwardly after class. Sure we get along but he's shy as hell, and seeing as hentai lies most of the time, I doubt he'll be some godly-endowed beast in bed who only needs a panty-shot to get it up to full power. And right now, I don't know if I want to hold someone's hand through a relationship. Especially considering I barely know my way through one. 

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So, Do I look for an entirely new relationship, most likely with a girl? Do I try and go back to an old relationship because I'm desperate/doubtful? Or do I follow the path I forged out on with confidence, but may not be the kind of relationship I'm looking for?

If anyone does read this, help would be very appreciated.

hurr you like my little "cleverness" with the paths? hahaha...ha... *passes out*

Talkin About Webcomics

So, uhm. I'm not going to start reviewing webcomics... because I'm way too shy to talk bad about anything... but I am going to start yanno... commenting on updates of comics. I'll need to update my webcomic list too. Because that thing is OUTDATED as HELL. Also,

SPOILER ALERT AND STUFF.

So, the comic that sparked this is Goodbye Chains. It's super well drawn and can range from witty to sad to... violent. But that's one of the things I really like about it, it doesn't focus on just one emotion. (Even though it's a rather dramatic comic on a whole.) The update today really surprised me.  I had been wondering where she would be going with everything after Banquo's death. Before this update things seemed to be winding down. But my goodness. They have not. I was rather surprised to see a ghost in the story, because up until now it's not shown any kind of supernatural touches. Not saying that I don't like it, I love it. And he's just as much of a lovable dick (hurrrr) as always, what with the whole "I knew it" thing. My goodness. I'm really excited to see what comes of this now. *glee*

Well that's all about that I suppose. My life has been... painfully normal. Though I am slowly but surly moving into my new room. It's in the basement, and has awesome full-sized windows in the window wells that are quite easy to climb out of, or into if that's your game. Hooray fire-codes. Oh, also. told Scout about the thing with Alex in it's entirety and her advice is I should talk to him. And I want to, I just don't know how. Then there's Matt. Who I like, but I think it's a rather shallow like as of yet. I don't know too much about him. Though he does draw, and he does write, he also plays soccer and wears the same thing to school everyday. Srsly. THE SAME THING. Same shoes, same style of pants, same hoodie zipped up to his neck. I've seen him wear one different outfit ONCE. When he had to wash his hoodie. Granted, it's a pretty fukken awesome jacket. He actually was about to ask if I was working trick-or-treat street after school when I was wearing one of my outfits. I was lolin. So, maybe Matt isn't the one for me. Maybe Alex is? I don't know, I guess I should think on it more... Fuck.

Other than that, I have a choir thing tomorrow, and then it's on to the weekend, which I may hang out with kelsey, and watch 300. o3o

Joy.

Gorillaz

Sweet. Freaking. Zombie brains. That concert was awesome. Seriously, ohmygoodness. Kelsey and I had such a super time. Even though she forgot her glasses. Dawww poor kelseh cannot see without them but never wears em' because they give her headaches. X3

Erm anywho. I was really tired all day. Scared myself awake in math, it was so weird. Accursed falling sensation and it's vile powers.

I disagreed with my creative writing teacher for the first time today. She's being rather uppity about the difference between mood and emotion. Emotion is purveying the characters own feeling to the reader, and mood is giving the reader an emotion. That's pretty much spot on. (I think) But she was wanting us to write a story that displayed a feeling, and then had us write a prologue. What got me miffed was that she insisted we were all creating moods instead of feelings in our first stories, and that we weren't supposed to be. I disagree with that, I think good writing gives a mood while telling a characters feeling, this makes the reader feel the same as the character. Of course you wouldn't want vice versa, giving non-existent characters emotion. And I suppose only being able to set a mood when there are characters involved would be difficult. But I think a better exercise would be to have a character feeling a different emotion than the mood sets. I dunno. I didn't enjoy ti because I feel the into ruined my writing. It was very unnecessary and an excess. And because I was writing in "filler mode" It sets absolutely no mood whatsoever. It's a terrible bit of forced writing that I had to turn in rather than turning in the actually story which has a steaming pile of emotions and moods in it.

Guh. Rant. Pardon me.