Well, I knew it would happen, but I didn't know it would suck so much. My body has lapsed into it's new (by new I mean it's only happened the past few summers) "Summer Time" Sleeping schedule. This consists of me staying up until sometime between 3 and 5, then sleeping in until anywhere from 12 to 1 or later at times. This I wouldn't mind so much, if it weren't so hard to break. I mean, I'm getting more sleep than I normally do during the school year, and when I am up, I feel fine. But if I have to get up even an hour earlier than normal, it is the biggest bitch in the existence of the universe. (Give or take, of course) I've even started out-staying-up Alex. Which is sad, because I get lonely in the wee hours of the morning with no-one to talk to.
Oh, so, happy 4th of July to anyone who celebrates that. I myself went up to my grandma's to see my cousins and watch fire-works. Really the whole affair was uncomfortable. I don't do well around my mum's side of the family. Our whole little group or whatever is already a black sheep from the rest of the family where my grandma is, but then I'm about the black-sheepiest of the lot, compared to the rest of them at least. Though my brother does have that whole gender-queer thing going for him, but everyone likes my brother because he's a really likable person. I however have a bitch of a time because, despite being a very openly eccentric person, (aka I dress like a freak and draw stuff that looks like I was on acid) I am still really self-concious. And in this lovely little town, you are either a college student, in 4H, or you play a sport. If you don't apply to those categories, you certainly don't show it off. I was wearing my outfit that reminds me of 1800's school girl outfits. Or at least Sadako's in Yu+Me. Though I don't have an adorable Apron to go with it like she does. D: But anyway, I was wearing that, and everyone else was wearing jeans and t-shirts or what have you, and the my cousins come over wearing more normal clothes, and they were obviously leery of me. Then, lo and behold, friends of theirs join us. I was so very uncomfortable I felt like I would explode. I think I was able to contribute to the conversation a bit, enough so they didn't think I was a mute too. But, a storm came along so we went back to my grandma's and it was just my cousins again. That was more manageable, plus my mum's new boyfriend is a rather nice chap, and I talked with him a bit. While he doesn't know much about anything I like, he would still listen and ask questions and offer up what he did know. My mum had been saying he only talks about himself, and never allowed for other conversation. She must either not be good at having conversations, or doesn't know how to sit back and listen to someone talk.
Oh well, I shall cut off my rambling here, and try to go to sleep. Derp, so tired
~Tentacle Cats love school girls.
Oh, so, happy 4th of July to anyone who celebrates that. I myself went up to my grandma's to see my cousins and watch fire-works. Really the whole affair was uncomfortable. I don't do well around my mum's side of the family. Our whole little group or whatever is already a black sheep from the rest of the family where my grandma is, but then I'm about the black-sheepiest of the lot, compared to the rest of them at least. Though my brother does have that whole gender-queer thing going for him, but everyone likes my brother because he's a really likable person. I however have a bitch of a time because, despite being a very openly eccentric person, (aka I dress like a freak and draw stuff that looks like I was on acid) I am still really self-concious. And in this lovely little town, you are either a college student, in 4H, or you play a sport. If you don't apply to those categories, you certainly don't show it off. I was wearing my outfit that reminds me of 1800's school girl outfits. Or at least Sadako's in Yu+Me. Though I don't have an adorable Apron to go with it like she does. D: But anyway, I was wearing that, and everyone else was wearing jeans and t-shirts or what have you, and the my cousins come over wearing more normal clothes, and they were obviously leery of me. Then, lo and behold, friends of theirs join us. I was so very uncomfortable I felt like I would explode. I think I was able to contribute to the conversation a bit, enough so they didn't think I was a mute too. But, a storm came along so we went back to my grandma's and it was just my cousins again. That was more manageable, plus my mum's new boyfriend is a rather nice chap, and I talked with him a bit. While he doesn't know much about anything I like, he would still listen and ask questions and offer up what he did know. My mum had been saying he only talks about himself, and never allowed for other conversation. She must either not be good at having conversations, or doesn't know how to sit back and listen to someone talk.
Oh well, I shall cut off my rambling here, and try to go to sleep. Derp, so tired
~Tentacle Cats love school girls.
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